feel like creating a new blog cause i cant change some of e settings for tis n cant put up my songs etc.. so its like abit boring but i dun bear to abandon tis blog.... well, mayb i'll switch to a new one when i thk i can put down all the things or i muz put down the things which i have written here...

went to the lib n study wif jean n weiteck yest.. but i din study much because of the stupid flu... hate to study when i am having flu esp when i am studying for my maths which needs alot of conc..

went to his workplace to find him yest.. wanted to make it a surprise thingy one but den i thk i am really very bad at keeping things.. i jux duno how to make it secretive.. argh... hope i din disturb him at work yest cause i dun wan to add on to his trouble n worries esp when he is at work.... tat's why when i msg him at orchard n realise he is not feeling gd tat time, i tot of jux going back home... but den i already bought all the food n stuff for him le.... so tot jux go there meet him n pass him e stuff n i will go back... since tat's my intention in e 1st place oso..... but in e end things din go as planned.. he's quite busy & i dun wan to go his workplace to find him so i jux walk ard n wait for him until he is free........ i knew he is very pek cek wif himself & there's nth i can do to help except keeping quiet n looking at him cause i know he is not in any mood to tok oso......

i am beginning to want to do things for him.. i really duno whether is tis a gd thing or not.. when u really like someone u will not mind doing alot of things for him.. u will in fact wan to do alot for him n tat's me..... tat is why i am really beginning to feel scare cause i know i am losing it... i always tot tat i haf tot it thru n i haf everything under control but judging from how i behave now, i know i am losing control....... jean also realise tat too......

mayb i should jux do wat i wan when i haf the chance n dun thk abt so much..... i always believe tat it is very hard to find a person u love n he loves u back too.... there's so many ppl in tis world n its fate tat let u meet him & share tis special affinity.... it only like happen once in a lifetime so why thk so much...... esp when feelings tis kinda of thing is so hard to explain n u really duno when u will stop feeling it or lose it.......

at tis pt, wat i am really sure is i feel very happy when i am wif him & i wan him to feel the same too... as for the future, well... i really dun wish to go n thk abt it... cause.................