woohoo... finally my misery ended... the stupid IM tat caused me to haf outbreak like nobody business is finally over.. have been damn stressed by tis paper until my face become damn cui, figure also cui... haiz.. duno when will my face 'recover'... i wanna go for facial..... & its like damn soon.... see myself in e mirror i really feel like crying ah...

woke up at 5 tis morn.. haf to discipline myself cause there's no one to discipline me today.. studied until 7 den go out le.. was studying all e way on e train.. 1st time i studied so much.. normally, when i was on e way to expo, i dun study for my paper already but tis paper...... qc see me like tat he also know i super scare & stressed up...

the paper ended at 1.. me & billy went back to wlds where jean darling was already there waiting for us.. had my lunch 1st den went to the lib n pia again le.. quite surprised i still can study aft the paper... but ard 6 plus, i am wasted le.. cant conc n nth seems to go in so decide to leave n slack my day away...

wanted to go yang's place & play MJ one but den anna is not free today.. really super duper long never play MJ already... there's so much things i wanna do... cant wait for fri to come where i'll be a free bird... gonna find a job immediately aft tis.. realise i haven been working for quite some time le...

mayb going genting again in june.. tis time round is to acc my mum there.. guess its time to fulfil my part as a daughter le.. haven been acc her n talking to her tat much since april.. tis stupid exam is making me distance from my family & making myself damn unhealthy n damn cui.... argh~~~~~ quick quick end my misery....

its e 2nd day tat he is not ard.... wonder wat is he doing there... been thking abt the genting alot tis days.. although he had told me b4 tat dun go thk abt the past anymore but my mind is not listening to tat at all, it will jux drift to tat memories whenever it has a chance... sometimes i really wonder, mayb the genting trip is jux a dream i had tis days... everything seems so unreal & 'out of pt'...... me joining their grad trip when i am not in their fac & somemore having my paper a wk later seems so absurd... haha... when i thk of it now, i also cant believe i myself did tat.... its really crazy... somemore, things tat i never ever dreamt of actually happened there.... well, to some extent, it can be considered as a dream also cause it will only happened once...... there's no chance for me to continue it like how a dream works... i haf no control over it at all.....