receive another call from him while i was watching the '200 pound beauty' online.. jux like yest nite call, it was really a surprise.. at 1st when the phone rang, i tot it might be from another fren of mine who had jux msg me sth that is not really gd... aft seeing that msg, i am a little affected... i really duno wat should i do to make him know tat at tis moment, we cant get back to the past frenship tat we once had.. i need time to 'find' our frenship, i lost it or should i say he lost it during the trip... even if we are able to find it, things changed... we wont be as close as b4... tat's one of the thing i always tell him in e past but he did it....

mayb its my fault also.. had a tok wif billy the other day & he told me tat i am prone to giving guys the wrong signal cause unlike other gals i am too frenly le.. so guys will normally get the wrong idea.. den he also said i am an extremist, if i am close to someone i can be really close but when i dun, i can jux like 'throw' him out of my life completely.. ha.. i muz admit, he is really my buddy.. when he says tat to me, i can only say i felt a 'bang'...

his call really calm me down n makes me feel beta even though it was a short one... he is trying to reassure me tat nth changed.. tat's the thing i needed the most.. i am jux like the insider in the Kyle model tat i studied for IM while he is the market maker... i need to take inference from him in order to decide wat i should do.... haha.. very funny rite.. can link tis to wat i studied.. thk i abit ' zhou huo ru mo' le... hehe...